Chapter 14
As the elevator stopped on the third floor, about five or six people who were going upstairs came in. The space suddenly became crowded.
Li Shu moved closer when people came in, being closer Shen Yiyou, and helped Shen Yiyou to block others.
He turned his back to Shen Yiyou, with his hands hanging to his side. Shen Yiyou looked at the blue veins of his hands and arms and hid in the corner of the elevator.
When the elevator reached the fifth floor, three more people came in. It was even more crowded.
Li Shu moved back a little, giving up some of the position in front of Shen Yiyou, and he leaned over and looked down at Shen Yiyou.
The other boy in front of Shen Yiyou didn’t seem to notice that there was a person behind him, and he took a big step back. When he was going to nearly hit Shen Yiyou, Li Shu reached out and stopped him.
The boy turned back in surprise, Li Shu said to him, “I am sorry, but someone is behind you.” The boy apologized as well.
Shen Yiyou and Li Shu live on the highest floor, the people in the elevator left in twos and threes. In the end, they are the only ones left.
When the door was opened, Shen Yiyou wanted to wait for Li Shu to go first, but Li Shu helped him block the door again, so he had to move first.
They walked from the elevator to the room. After a few steps. Li Shu first spoke and asked Shen Yiyou: “How many days do you stay in the capital?”
“Leave tomorrow,” Shen Yiyou said to him, and hesitated again, “Are you in business trip too?”
“For some business,” Li Shu said, not telling Shen Yiyou what the business was like before. Looking over at Shen Yiyou, “You are so busy in August? can’t spare one week.”
Shen Yiyou nodded and said, “I can only count for three days,” then asked Li Shu a little helplessly: “Is it really not enough for one night?”
Li Shu walked a bit slower, as if thinking about it, then said, “Even if it is enough, you will be tired of going back and forth.”
“It’s okay,” Shen Yiyou whispered, “It won’t be very tired.”
Li Shu stopped talking.
Shen Yiyou focused his attention on the numbers on the doors. They are approaching his room. He took out the room card and held it tightly in his hand. At the right door, Shen Yiyou stopped: “My room is here.”
He turned to Li Shu and looked up. Li Shu glanced at him and set aside his eyes slightly.
Shen Yiyou was a little sad but did not show it. He asked Li Shu again: “When is it convenient for you?”
Li Shu lowered his eyes. After a few seconds, he said, “Only this weekend is free in August.”
“What about September?” Shen Yiyou asked.
He finally raised his eyes and looked at Shen Yiyou, telling straightly: “Don’t have time.”
“…” Shen Yiyou whispered, “How busy you are.”
This was not the first time Li Shu told Shen Yiyou that he was not available.
When Shen Yiyou asked Li Shu for the first time whether he would like to have a meal with his friends, Li Shu said that he was not available. He asked Li Shu if he could accompany him to the supermarket or go to the movie. Li Shu said it again.
Li Shu was always busy. When Shen Yiyou was holding Li Shu’s one hand at home, Li Shu had to use his other hand to reply to the mail. However, when they were together, he still made time to be with Shen Yiyou.
However, Shen Yiyou didn’t need it now.
“I’ll start the show in September,” Li Shu explained to Shen Yiyou, “I have a company to get listed.”
“I will return to San Francisco from City S this weekend,” he told Shen Yiyou, “if you want, you can go back with me.”
Two other hotel guests were coming over, Li Shu gave way to let them pass.
They waited for the guests going far. Li Shu said, “You may go in first. You don’t need to decide now.”
Shen Yiyou nodded to check the card and pushed the door a little bit. Then he turned back, wanting to say goodbye to Li Shu, but just met Li Shu’s eyes.
Li Shu looked intently and quietly into Shen Yiyou’s eyes.
The expression on his face was subtle. He was far away from Shen Yiyou. But somehow, Shen Yiyou confused Li Shu in front of him with the one when he first met.
Li Shu was in a pose showing I don’t want to leave and to be asked not to leave so that Shen Yiyou couldn’t look at Li Shu anymore.
He felt that Li Shu was like a swamp without borders. Shen Yiyou was a sacrifice, being tied tight to his hands and feet with heavy objects locked on his body.
As long as the swamp was still there, Shen Yiyou would sink continuously.
“I will go in.” Shen Yiyou ducked his head to avoid, saying very lightly.
He pushed the door in and didn’t look back. When the door was about to close, he heard Li Shu calling his name outside. Then the door closed the next second.
Shen Yiyou didn’t open the door immediately. He stood on the porch for a while. Li Shu didn’t knock on the door. He thought that Li Shu was gone so he put his hand on the doorknob and thought for a few seconds. He opened it a little and look around.
Then he saw Li Shu’s shoes, pants, T-shirt. Li Shu stood still.
“Shen Yiyou,” Li Shu said, “Can I come in?”
Shen Yiyou looked at him for a while, he opened the door a little more and let Li Shu come in.
Shen Yiyou let Li Shu sit on the chair near the desk and sit on the sofa by himself, not only feeling tortured and sad, but also a kind of sadness that should not be here.
He tried to divert some attention, so he picked a topic, “I just heard you said your company will go public, haven’t congratulated you.”
Li Shu looked at him quietly for some time, and said, “Thank you.”
Shen Shenyi paused for a few seconds, but couldn’t help asking Li Shu: “How did you meet her?”
Li Shu frowned, and asked, “Who?”
Shen Yiyou’s face warmed up a little, and he felt that it was a little embarrassing to inquire about Li Shu’s new relationship. So he shook his head and forgot about it, and asked Li Shu: “Have your house been on sale?”
Li Shu didn’t seem to hear Shen Yiyou’s question at all. He still looked at Shen Yiyou’s face. After a while, he said “Shen Yiyou”, as if talking to himself, “I have never seen you aster such a long time.”
Shen Yiyou said in a low voice, “Is it?”
Li Shu stood up.
He walked to the sofa where Shen Yiyou was sitting, and slowly touched the back of Shen Yiyou’s hand like a tentative test. He knelt down and stared at Shen Yiyou’s face.
“Shen Yiyou,” he said. He talked to Shen Yiyou in the way as if he were not in a new relationship at all and he still liked and needed Shen Yiyou. Li Shu acted like he didn’t want to leave, so Shen Yiyou was confused and panicked.
Shen Yiyou turned his face to the side, and Li Shu touched Shen Yiyou’s chin lightly, asking him to turn back.
“I brought you a gift for you on your birthday,” Li Shu told Shen Yiyou, and he seemed to complain about Shen Yiyou, saying, “I took the cake and flowers downstairs in your house, but you went out with friends.”
Shen Yiyou looked at Li Shu, remembering his bad birthday and that bad phone call, but he couldn’t tell what it was like. After a while, he asked, “Was it?”
Li Shu said “um”, while he grabbed Shen Yiyou’s right hand on his leg with the other hand, but Shen Yiyou didn’t push him away.
“Don’t do this again,” Li Shu asked Shen Yiyou in a very stubborn tone. “Well, don’t say things like accepting others which made me angry.”
For a few minutes, Shen Yiyou was really confused by Li Shu, as if the breakup and pain were fake, just Shen Yiyou unilaterally quarreled with Li Shu, and Li Shu was still coaxing him.
In fact, only three hours have passed since the rain that night.
Li Shu got closer after he took off his glasses to kiss Shen Yiyou. Shen Yiyou raised his hand to press his shoulder and turned away, but he couldn’t really refuse it.